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could it end any other way?
the clouds in my head starting to break
staring at the sky on the morning after
the windows of the last train
the station cold, grey
now how long has it been?
can you feel anything?
now how long as it been?
can you feel anything at all?
abandon all hope of a brighter dream
nobody here knows, nobody believes
it's in the air, it's in the clouds above
and maybe someday we'll make it far away
inside a dream or another country
abandon all hope, forget everything
could it end any other way?
car crash in an overcast empty town
the clouds in my head starting to break
bloodshot eyes time is slowing down
staring at the sky on the morning after
the windows of the last train
the station cold grey
another morning, another bad dream
another night out, familiarity
but will we ever become more than this?
and with the lights out i can be someone else
and i can be someone and no one
and everything between us
another morning, another broken dream
now how long has it been?
can you feel anything?
shut down
how long has it been?
can you feel anything at all?
could it end any other way?
car crash in an overcast empty town
the clouds in my head starting to break
bloodshot eyes time is slowing down
staring at the sky on the morning after
thru the windows of the last train
the evening light fades
and you're still here
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2. |
MYSTERY SCHOOL
02:30
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somehow
try to escape into a better world
everything you love is a lie
or it's despicable somehow
try to escape into better world
but they'll fuck ur heart out
listening for the motions of the unspoken
try to keep my stupid over-trusting heart open
maybe after all of this is over
i'll awake to a softer brighter place
keep the comfort self-contained
i can be my truest self someday
dont look back keep running away
in the cutest hell i'll be safe
and i saw myself
jaded and cold in the sunlight
and i saw my heart
falling alone from a great height
everything that you love is a filthy lie
or despicable somehow
try to escape to a better world
they'll fuck your heart out
everything that you love is a filthy lie
or despicable somehow
try to escape to a better world
they'll fuck your heart out
everything that you love is a filthy lie
or despicable somehow
try to escape to a better world
they'll fuck your heart out
everything that you love is a filthy lie
or despicable somehow
try to escape to a better world
they'll fuck your heart out
and i saw myself
jaded and cold in the sunlight
and i saw my heart
falling alone from a great height
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when i first saw your world
i tried to make it mine
when you're adrift
u only think about escaping
and i couldn't take the loneliness
of being who i was inside
i wanted to live in your outside
we cannot describe the inside
un-romanticized
we try so hard to be known
but everything we try to show
is only distant starlight
every time i try
it comes out like a dream
nothing in my eyes
can show you what i mean
i just want to be understood at all
but i couldnt call this anything like me
please see me
it doesn't matter if no one can know me
(give me a name)
if i can lose all control as you hold me
(give me anything)
it doesn't matter if no one can know me
(give me a name)
if i can lose all control as you hold me
(give me anything)
we cannot describe the inside
un-romanticized
we try so hard to be known
but everything we try to show
is only distant starlight
we cannot describe the inside
(we can't describe)
un-romanticized
(un-romanticized)
we try so hard to be known
but everything we try to show
is only distant starlight
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4. |
UR GONNA LIVE
03:37
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i wanna hold this moment
(hold me)
i want this second frozen
(freeze me out)
i wanna run away
from everything that i hold dear
i wanna take ur hand
and disappear
(disappear me)
u make me feel so weightless
(im nothing)
my rusted heart feels stainless
(way too clean)
this can never last
but i just wanna hold onto it for now
please show me how
(please hold me for now)
every time i look at u
i feel like ive become somebody new
every time i look at u
i feel like ive become somebody
nothing remains or can be salvaged
screaming at the dead grey city sky
and in the rain someone is laughing
from far away behind my eyes
everything i ever wanted
(i wanted)
everything i need
(i need to be erased)
all the hurt ive ever been thru
(protect me)
falling away right in front of me
(dont let me break)
everything i ever wanted
(i want u)
everything i need
(i want to feel true)
all the hurt ive ever been thru
(protect me)
falling away right in front of me
(im falling through)
every time i try to touch my heart
it hardens into plaster
maybe i could fit in
if only i was a better actor
every time i try to touch my heart
(my heart)
it hardens into plaster
(what the fuck is this?)
maybe i could fit in
(where is home)
if only i was a better actor
(will i ever know?)
nothing remains or can be salvaged
screaming at the dead grey city sky
and in the rain someone is laughing
from far away behind my eyes
nothing remains or can be salvaged
screaming at the dead grey city sky
and in the rain someone is laughing
from far away behind my eyes
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if i could be there
(if i could be there)
if i could become exactly what i need
(if... please)
but im so consumed by it
(but im so consumed by it)
i dont want to speak
( dont want to speak)
i dont want to breathe
breathe (breathe)
was there something i was missing
that i needed to survive?
i tried so hard to be what i hated
i thought that it was all worth waiting for
now it lives inside me, judgment rising
engulfing all that i stood for
i feel the evil writhing underneath
my exterior it hides inside my speech
always waiting for the moment
when it can become me
i cant sleep
i cant sleep
i cant sleep my love song
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything i had
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to weaponize, catch you in my lies
every time that i try to sing it hurts
(it hurts)
but is it a blessing or a curse
(a curse)
cuz i know that i got the evil urge
(the urge)
gotta catch u before u get me first
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything we have
and all the treasured memories are fading fast
no matter how hard i try to catch them in the wind
im right back where it all begins
and im someone else, but that is a lie
i wish i was good but at least i can try
do my best to hold onto what i have
but i just wanna throw it away
and keep running from who i am
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything i had
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to weaponize, catch you in my lies
every time that i try to sing it hurts
(it hurts)
but is it a blessing or a curse
(a curse)
cuz i know that i got the evil urge
(the urge)
gotta catch u before u get me first
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage-
everything
everything
everything
sabotage everything
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything i had
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything we have
every time that i try to sing it hurts
(it hurts)
but is it a blessing or a curse
(a curse)
cuz i know that i got the evil urge
(the urge)
gotta catch u before u get me first
i cant sleep my love song is speaking in tongues
i wanted to sabotage everything we have
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6. |
CURSE (for Devi)
03:20
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i tried so hard to play it cool
inside so helpless and confused
when im around u i feel new
i hope this isn't too soon
but im fucking crazy about u
i want to know ur thoughts
i want to know ur touch
i want to know ur every secret wish
i want to know too much about u
i feel the distance between us
melting away
i know we're both so afraid
i know u say that theres a curse on u
but ive got one too
that's how i found u
i cant believe ur here with me
i want u so bad i cant breathe
i feel so stupid and weak
u bring out something in me
i had no idea this could be real
i want to know ur thoughts
i want to feel ur touch
i want to know ur fucked up fantasies
i want to know too much
i want to give u everything
u mean so much to me
u make me feel like im not sick
like nothing ever happened to me
i know u think
that u dont deserve to be protected
all i want to do is care for u
and give u what u need
i just want to keep u safe
after all we've been through
it's never enough
i think i'm in love with you
oh god ive never felt so understood
i feel like its dangerous to feel this good
i'm gone im fucking dying next to u
do u feel it too?
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7. |
A FUTURE
03:16
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in a moment i could see everything
overwhelming, longing for what could be
everything that we could become together
i never want to go back
something different i didnt know was real
like remembering that i could really feel
realizing everything i wanted
was here and waiting for me
it always looked so distant
it always seemed so far away
i didnt know that i could get here someday
the feeling of escaping
falling into the arms of
what i needed all along
and knowing i belong
a future
a future
a future flickering in my mind
an obsession culminating in peace
pushing thru it
reaching another me
and they say that
"no matter where u go, there u are"
dont think that i believe it
for so long i knew myself
but i couldn't get it right
now so long to all the guilt
i just want to live my life
it always looked so distant
it always seemed so far away
i didn't know that i could get here someday
the feeling of escaping
falling into the arms of
what i needed all along
and knowing i belong
a future
a future
our future
a future
a future
our future!
it always looked so distant
it always seemed so far away
i didn't know that i could get here someday
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Ada Rook Toronto, Ontario
im rook from black dresses
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