i hope when you think of me
years from now
you feel nothing
i still remember
what you said to me when i was 15
screaming about killing myself on my bedroom floor
i hope you understand
i still doubt myself
about things you have no idea happened to me
you never fucking knew me
and i never fucking knew you
and sometimes i see your face in people i love and i hate you
people say "no matter where you go, there you are"
as if it's fucking true
eight words that i tried to kill with the weakness
of my emaciated body as i cursed this town from the asphalt
the sky in this place looks familiar and i'm so scared
i woke up here again and i memorize the sky and the trees
and the asphalt and i'm dying
just kill me already and bury my soul in the asphalt
do you remember?
what the solution to all of my problems was
as you spoke it
you did not know what to do with me
"don't say that"
"don't think bad thoughts"
did you know the name of what you were inflicting?
speak truth to me
lock eyes with me
***HAVE YOU EVER LET YOURSELF FEEL ANYTHING?***
Cartoon Network will always be my favorite for the pure trauma venting, but Music... Music makes me cry every time I listen. I want to say both are my favorite, but Bandcamp sucks ass lol danijayy
this was the final album i needed to complete my collection of every black dresses album (and ep), and this one. this one is my new favorite. it's everything i love about black dresses, especially on WHEEL OF FORTUNE. crazy to think this is 5 years old, let alone released in the same month as my birthday. one million happy fans and friends forever <3 cyrus
Emma Grey (Malachi, Contentious, Hive) sets aside her bands' righteous aggression for this luminous, mournful, spacious solo outing. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 9, 2021
Layering acoustic drums and bass with synth and dreamy vocals to form undulating pieces, “Drums” is Red On's take on contemporary krautrock. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 12, 2021
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